Control Freak

I have recently come to the realization, after a year & a half of Shane trying to tell me, that I am a control freak and I have a mild case of OCD. Or, instead of diagnosing myself, I'll let you decide.... here are some of my "must happens":

1. Locks. I don't know what made me this way, but I am extremely afraid. All the time. My car doors get locked the second I step out (doesn't matter where I am.) Both deadbolts on the apartment door get locked when I'm inside (and of course when I'm gone.) I even like the bedroom door to be locked when we're sleeping, and I lock the screen door when the sliding glass door is open... This is the one Shane hates the most b/c he doesn't lock ANYthing.

2. The hangers in the closet. All hangers with nothing hanging on them must be kept to the left of the clothing...

3. The radio volume. Must be on an even number.

4. Trash in the apartment. I HATE any kind of trash laying around. It must be moved to the trashcan immediately or I'll go crazy.

5. Blinds. All blinds must be kept open during the day and closed at night.

6. Phone logs. Each person in my call logs can only be listed once.

7. The mail. I have to take the outgoing mail to the mailbox immediately after it's ready.

8. Bills. All bills must be paid the day I get paid. Which is not all bad, I have never paid a bill a single day late. They are always early, sometimes weeks early.

9. Vitamins. Shane and I both must take our vitamins every day before bed or I won't know what to do with myself.

10. The dogs' nails. I cut them as sooooon as they are too long. I can't stand it when they aren't done right away.

11. My hair. I wash my hair every 2-3 days, and use a special conditioner once every 2 weeks. Which is not like me at all, because if you know me, I could care less about the way I look.

12. The toothpaste. Must be in the top drawer immediately after use.

So all that said, I realize I need to relax. It's ironic because other things don't bother me at all. "Piles" of things around the apartment, clothes on the floor, spontaneous activities, the shower being a mess, etc. Those things I could care less about. Hopefully Kynzie will help me, because I won't have the time or energy to keep up with all of my "OCD-isms".... So do I have a problem??? I'd say so. And it's resulted in a lot of added stress to myself and to Shane & I's relationship. We have had countless arguments about these things. But I'm not ready to let go.... :-/