One of the things I have always wanted to change about myself is the kind of sleeper I am. LIGHT. I'm a sleep snob. I have to have absolute pitch blackness, and no noise except for the white noise of the fan which I cannot sleep without.
Shane, on the other hand, is the kind of sleeper I want to be. The TV could be blasting, the sun shining on his face, I could be talking to him, and he can just tell himself to go to sleep- and do it in a matter of five minutes. And I'm allowed to hate him for this. :-) Not a night goes by where he doesn't get angry at me for needing the noise of the fan. "Kynzie will NOT be dependent on the fan." He says it will make life harder, like traveling. Because we will always have to bring a fan with us. And I guess he's right. So I tried a few times throughout the pregnancy to ween myself from my "fan-dependency," but halfway through the night, I got so tired of tossing and turning and paying attention to every little sound, that I gave up and begged Shane to let me give in and turn on my precious fan.
I have heard so many different things about sleep when I have a newborn. How I should say goodbye to sleep, sleep when she sleeps, take naps during the day, get her on a routine so I can get myself on a routine, etc. But had someone told me the kind of sleep I'd be getting (or should I say not getting) at this point in the pregnancy, I wouldn't have believed them. I believed they were right and for the last few weeks I'd be super uncomfortable trying to sleep, but it's not that simple. I toss and turn allllll night long. And I find myself soaked in pools of sweat, even if it's 40 degrees outside and the window is open. But what I wasn't prepared for, is I wake up every hour or so WIDE awake. Like I had just slept for days. Getting up with Shane at 6am after a night of no sleep is a piece of cake. And it's sooo frustrating! I've also heard, "Oh you'll be so sleep-deprived you'll be able to sleep through more than you can now." I call bluff on that one. Overtired is just as bad as not tired at all. I used to work nights, and even after 6 months of it, if I hadn't slept in days, it was still nearly impossible to lull myself to sleep.
I guess this is my body getting ready for baby girl's feedings. Regardless, I have maybe up to 3 more weeks to prepare for that! I want to get in all the sleep I possibly can until she gets here!!
So I guess this is me saying goodbye sleep, you will be and already are, missed.
I was the same way with the fan, until I had Ava lol. Then I just started falling asleep without it because I was so tired. I was sick of everybody telling me the sleep stuff like enjoy it while you can. I wasn't enjoying it while I was pregnant it was awful. After you have her yes you will be up alot but even if you get 4 hours it will be a good for hours and to me the 4 hours I got after Ava was born was better then tossing or turning for 8 while I was pregnant. And the sleep while the babys sleeping thing-yes you should if you are tired but if you just want to spend some time watching tv or reading or something, do it.sometimes it's nice to have time to yourself and it's relaxing even if you aren't sleeping.
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