-My rice cooker makes the apartment smell like pee.
-Summer is driving me insane. She can't go on a walk without constantly pulling like it's her job.
-My chocolate obsession is starting to dissipate. I think maybe because my acid reflux is getting better.
- Our fridge is BARE. If you can whip something up with a bunch of different condiments, you have a meal. Otherwise, you are S.O.L.
- My chiropractor is my hero. I haven't had sciatica since my first appointment there, which was almost a month ago!
- Gas money would be awesome. I have been saving the few drops of gas left in the car for in case I have to drive myself to the hospital.
- Shane and I need *one* more day trip together before baby M gets here. Doesn't look very likely.
- I neeeeed to clean out our closet.
- Makynzie, you are making me feel like my ribs are separating.
- I wish I had invented Magic Erasers. I'd be a millionaire.
- I can't wait for my next full night of sleep. Which I'm afraid will be a WHILE from now.
- I want a quesadilla.
- Buckwheat keeps walking up and putting his cold, wet nose up my arm pit. He probably needs to go out.
- Kynzie has enough bibs & socks for her whole life! (If she were to stay an infant, that is.)
- I can't wait til Shane gets home and we can go on our daily walk. It's so relaxing hearing all about his day, and his hopes and dreams for the future while enjoying this nice, sunny weather.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Like it or Hate it, but Leave me alone about it!
Yes, I am drinking small amounts of coffee while pregnant. I am enjoying some cold lunch meat on occasion. I am taking Tylenol and Zantac when I need it, because Lord knows I need it! You better believe I'm getting that epidural. I am going to try cloth diapers. Maybe instead of putting me down about it, you could say "good for you!" or "I hope it works out!" Something encouraging, which is not "Good luck...." or "Yea you will switch to disposable..." I will not be using hand sanitizer like it's going out of business. I will not be sterilizing every bottle and pacifier. I'm going to try to make her food myself. I plan to do so when she is 4-6 months old. I hope to start potty training her asap. I will let my dogs sniff her to check her out, and once she's a little older, lick her face. I will get her vaccinated, I may even have my chiropractor adjust her. I plan to put her in public school. I may or may not raise her in the church, however I will not tell her one religion is right until she is old enough to completely understand and make a decision for herself. I will not allow her to wear provocative clothing or experiment with drugs. I will let her get muddy & messy if she is having fun. I will let her cry it out if that's best for her. I may or may not spank her when she disobeys. These are all MY decisions for MY child. You can make the same, or different decisions, for YOUR child. And I will respect that, and keep my mouth shut because it is none of my business.
Having said all that, I will love my daughter. I will show her that she can always trust me and come to me with any problem she is having. I will allow her to be angry. I will show her right from wrong and give her the opportunity to choose one or the other. I will be a good example to her, and provide a good example of what marriage should be. I will give her the best advice I know to give her, and not judge her when she makes the wrong decision. I will love her unconditionally. I will offer support and a shoulder to cry on. I will cry when she chooses her friends over family. My heart will break when her's does. She will never have any doubt in her mind that her mother loves her.
So you tell me... which of these is most important??
Having said all that, I will love my daughter. I will show her that she can always trust me and come to me with any problem she is having. I will allow her to be angry. I will show her right from wrong and give her the opportunity to choose one or the other. I will be a good example to her, and provide a good example of what marriage should be. I will give her the best advice I know to give her, and not judge her when she makes the wrong decision. I will love her unconditionally. I will offer support and a shoulder to cry on. I will cry when she chooses her friends over family. My heart will break when her's does. She will never have any doubt in her mind that her mother loves her.
So you tell me... which of these is most important??
Monday, February 7, 2011
Forgive my Whining
I am SO ready to get this child out of me. But at the same time, I want to pretend I enjoy it so that I'll want to get pregnant again someday. :) I am so anxious now. With only 5 weeks left (could be up to 7. ughhh) I am finding myself getting incredibly impatient. I wake up a few times in the night (usually to pee) and find myself glancing over at the bassinet wishing she was in it so I could watch her sleep and cry over how beautiful she is. AT LEAST once a day I tell Shane I wish she was here. I walk into her nursery and get butterflies. I even try to avoid reading the baby books because I know it will only cause me to grow more and more impatient. I'm trying to tell myself that my due date is actually March 26th in order to instill a little more patience in myself. I just know that once I'm 38 weeks, I'm going to walk, eat spicy food... everything I possibly can to meet her sooner.
Shane and I talk so much now about the hopes we have for her. Nothing can make this sweet child come soon enough.
Shane and I talk so much now about the hopes we have for her. Nothing can make this sweet child come soon enough.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
7 months
Kynzie girl,
We have hit the 7 month mark. Holy cow. I cannot believe you will be here in just 11 weeks. I am getting more impatient by the day. Daddy told me last night that I haven't been a bad sport about the whole pregnancy. I know I need to document that. :)
You are growing so quickly. What was once swift jabs at my side, are now massive body parts rubbing against me with pressure and causing me to jump because I can't believe how strong you are. I can feel AND see you move now. It's so unreal. When I show Daddy, he smiles and his jaw drops. We get to see you again in 2 weeks on an ultrasound. My asthma medicine can cause a growth stunt, so they want to check your growth and make sure you're right on track. (Don't tell Daddy I haven't been taking the medicine for this reason!) We want to save up $100 to get another 3d ultrasound before you come so we can see your new facial features. We keep talking about what we think you will look like. Our best guess is brown, curly hair. And I think you will look a lot like Daddy's side of the family.
We are also trying to hire a babysitter off Care.com for Daddy and I's date nights. I need to take down our post because it's been up for 5 days & I'm getting responses like crazy. So far we have 12 interviews scheduled in January. Yikes!
I'm having more dreams about you now. And when I wake up from a bad dream, I try to imagine you laying next to me peacefully. I see your chubby cheeks and sweet little lips (probably not little if you you take after Daddy! :-))
I am most looking forward to seeing your daddy with you. He is so excited. He always said he wanted a boy, but he's even more excited about a girl. He wants to take you hunting and fishing, and he has chosen several songs he wants to sing to you. Including "Don't Cry" by Jamey Johnson. Ah, I love that song and your daddy's voice gives me chills, it's so pretty. He keeps talking about how strict he will be with your boyfriends and what you wear. :-) He is a big softy, so I don't think you'll fear him much. I'm sure you'll know how to work him! He is almost done making your changing table and he's so thrilled to do that for you.
I'm getting really nervous about him being at work all day and class all evening. I'm looking for a part time job to keep me busy. I know I can take care of you myself, I just hate being alone. Weekends with him will be nice and we want to plan family outings for as many of them as possible.
I get to hear your heartbeat tomorrow at my 29 week appointment :-) Keep it strong for us, and keep growing like a weed so you will be healthy and strong when you decide to make your grand appearance.
We love you more than you will ever know,
Mommy
We have hit the 7 month mark. Holy cow. I cannot believe you will be here in just 11 weeks. I am getting more impatient by the day. Daddy told me last night that I haven't been a bad sport about the whole pregnancy. I know I need to document that. :)
You are growing so quickly. What was once swift jabs at my side, are now massive body parts rubbing against me with pressure and causing me to jump because I can't believe how strong you are. I can feel AND see you move now. It's so unreal. When I show Daddy, he smiles and his jaw drops. We get to see you again in 2 weeks on an ultrasound. My asthma medicine can cause a growth stunt, so they want to check your growth and make sure you're right on track. (Don't tell Daddy I haven't been taking the medicine for this reason!) We want to save up $100 to get another 3d ultrasound before you come so we can see your new facial features. We keep talking about what we think you will look like. Our best guess is brown, curly hair. And I think you will look a lot like Daddy's side of the family.
We are also trying to hire a babysitter off Care.com for Daddy and I's date nights. I need to take down our post because it's been up for 5 days & I'm getting responses like crazy. So far we have 12 interviews scheduled in January. Yikes!
I'm having more dreams about you now. And when I wake up from a bad dream, I try to imagine you laying next to me peacefully. I see your chubby cheeks and sweet little lips (probably not little if you you take after Daddy! :-))
I am most looking forward to seeing your daddy with you. He is so excited. He always said he wanted a boy, but he's even more excited about a girl. He wants to take you hunting and fishing, and he has chosen several songs he wants to sing to you. Including "Don't Cry" by Jamey Johnson. Ah, I love that song and your daddy's voice gives me chills, it's so pretty. He keeps talking about how strict he will be with your boyfriends and what you wear. :-) He is a big softy, so I don't think you'll fear him much. I'm sure you'll know how to work him! He is almost done making your changing table and he's so thrilled to do that for you.
I'm getting really nervous about him being at work all day and class all evening. I'm looking for a part time job to keep me busy. I know I can take care of you myself, I just hate being alone. Weekends with him will be nice and we want to plan family outings for as many of them as possible.
I get to hear your heartbeat tomorrow at my 29 week appointment :-) Keep it strong for us, and keep growing like a weed so you will be healthy and strong when you decide to make your grand appearance.
We love you more than you will ever know,
Mommy
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
27.5 weeks
Kynzie-girl,
I don't know why but that nickname has just kinda "stuck." I will have to forgive everyone (your Aunt Erin!) for calling you "MJ" because I know it will happen and I hate it!
I can't believe we're so close to meeting you. Yet it's dragging on! I love every light or swift kick that you make, but at the same time it makes me long to hold you and comfort you so badly. I can't wait to show you how crazy in love with you we already are.
Daddy started getting your nursery ready. It looks gorgeous. He's so funny, he wants everything to be absolutely perfect and stresses himself out if something is not. He was correcting your block letters on the wall and I told him to leave it, it was ok a little crooked. But he said concerned, "honey, don't you want our daughter's first room to be beautiful?" :) Yes, I do. And I will always remember him saying that. He likes to feel you move but I think it really weirds him out! Each morning when my first alarm goes off, without fail, you are wide awake. You stretch and kick like a little pinball. I feel you on each side at the same time, one side being strong, repetitive kicks in my ribs. Don't you know I need all the sleep I can get? ;-)
My sciatica is completely gone. I only wear my best sneakers now and that seems to have alleviated the pain. I am, however, craving chocolate like it's going out of business! I have nnneeevvveeerrr liked chocolate. Now I can't get enough! Ice cream, hot chocolate, cookies, Hershey bars, M&M's, cake.... ahhh! I have gained 21 pounds and the midwife says I am measuring exactly where I should. I still feel tiny, but can't believe I'm going to get bigger. Now when looking at me, there's no mistaking the fact that I'm pregnant.
I don't know what else to say, other than I can't WAIT to meet you and kiss your little face.
You are so loved,
Mommy
I don't know why but that nickname has just kinda "stuck." I will have to forgive everyone (your Aunt Erin!) for calling you "MJ" because I know it will happen and I hate it!
I can't believe we're so close to meeting you. Yet it's dragging on! I love every light or swift kick that you make, but at the same time it makes me long to hold you and comfort you so badly. I can't wait to show you how crazy in love with you we already are.
Daddy started getting your nursery ready. It looks gorgeous. He's so funny, he wants everything to be absolutely perfect and stresses himself out if something is not. He was correcting your block letters on the wall and I told him to leave it, it was ok a little crooked. But he said concerned, "honey, don't you want our daughter's first room to be beautiful?" :) Yes, I do. And I will always remember him saying that. He likes to feel you move but I think it really weirds him out! Each morning when my first alarm goes off, without fail, you are wide awake. You stretch and kick like a little pinball. I feel you on each side at the same time, one side being strong, repetitive kicks in my ribs. Don't you know I need all the sleep I can get? ;-)
My sciatica is completely gone. I only wear my best sneakers now and that seems to have alleviated the pain. I am, however, craving chocolate like it's going out of business! I have nnneeevvveeerrr liked chocolate. Now I can't get enough! Ice cream, hot chocolate, cookies, Hershey bars, M&M's, cake.... ahhh! I have gained 21 pounds and the midwife says I am measuring exactly where I should. I still feel tiny, but can't believe I'm going to get bigger. Now when looking at me, there's no mistaking the fact that I'm pregnant.
I don't know what else to say, other than I can't WAIT to meet you and kiss your little face.
You are so loved,
Mommy
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
23.5 weeks
Makynzie Jude,
We are 23. 5 weeks and you are getting so strong. If you were to come on your due date, daddy and I only have a few more months til we meet you. And I can't even begin to tell you how impatient I am getting for that day. Your kicks are so hard now and you turn your little body violently in my tummy when I'm trying to sleep at night. :-)You gave me comfort last night when I woke up from a nightmare and you started stretching as if to tell me everything is ok. I feel you the best when I'm on my back. That makes sense because the doctor says your placenta is attached up high & further back in my uterus.
I have had the stereotypical chocolate cravings. Which blows my mind, because I normally hate chocolate. I constantly want hot chocolate, m&ms, or cake. I've also wanted a lot of chinese food, but that's not in our budget so I need to learn to get over that one. :-)
Your nursery is coming along slowly, but surely. The "Man Cave"/office/guest bedroom is now a nursery/guest bedroom. Daddy has painted your shelves and block letters for the wall, and he is starting to work on your changing table. Your dresser is already full!
I'm starting to get a little nervous about labor, but meeting you will be completely worth it. I feel like I already know you, and it's killing me that I can't hold you and show you how much I love you yet.
Keep growing strong for us sweet girl,
Mommy
We are 23. 5 weeks and you are getting so strong. If you were to come on your due date, daddy and I only have a few more months til we meet you. And I can't even begin to tell you how impatient I am getting for that day. Your kicks are so hard now and you turn your little body violently in my tummy when I'm trying to sleep at night. :-)You gave me comfort last night when I woke up from a nightmare and you started stretching as if to tell me everything is ok. I feel you the best when I'm on my back. That makes sense because the doctor says your placenta is attached up high & further back in my uterus.
I have had the stereotypical chocolate cravings. Which blows my mind, because I normally hate chocolate. I constantly want hot chocolate, m&ms, or cake. I've also wanted a lot of chinese food, but that's not in our budget so I need to learn to get over that one. :-)
Your nursery is coming along slowly, but surely. The "Man Cave"/office/guest bedroom is now a nursery/guest bedroom. Daddy has painted your shelves and block letters for the wall, and he is starting to work on your changing table. Your dresser is already full!
I'm starting to get a little nervous about labor, but meeting you will be completely worth it. I feel like I already know you, and it's killing me that I can't hold you and show you how much I love you yet.
Keep growing strong for us sweet girl,
Mommy
Friday, November 12, 2010
New Mommy Fears
I have had a lot of experience with kids. I started babysitting when I was eleven, helped in the church nursery when I was little, I have two nephews who mean the world to me, and I am a nanny to incredibly spoiled, difficult twins. However, as any new mom would be (and should be!) I have many fears of parenting and taking care of a child of my own. It has recently hit me (hard) that if all goes according to plan, in a few short months, I will be faced with these fears. It's now mid-November (it was just July yesterday!!) and our sweet baby girl is due in early March. So it sounds like a good idea to jot down these worries I have, and see how they turned out after she gets here. Here goes...
- The big one. Breastfeeding. I won't get into the details on this one. But I want this so badly for myself and my daughter. For the bond, the quick(er) weight loss, the convenience, the nutrients it gives her, and the affordability. But my patience and low tolerance for pain are what scares me here...
-Cloth diapering. Yep, that's right- I'm out of my mind. :-) I am committed to cloth diaper my child. For many reasons. A few being: they're better for her skin, better for the environment, saves money each month and with each child we have (we want 3), & they're just cuter! I will be using the "Flip" system, a one-size diaper, and I am already stocked up on shells & inserts so the only cost it will be to me now is an increase in my electric & water bills. Which shouldn't be too significant. The work is what scares me now!
-Deciding how to keep her distanced from negative friends & family that aren't good for her to be around. Thankfully Shane and I totally agree in this area. We don't want her around drinking, smoking, & swearing. And we don't want her around people that have a negative infuence on her. Family or not. So we plan to talk to the person if there's a problem, and if that doesn't work- unfortunately, distance her from them. 'Nuff said.
-Teaching her religion. We want her to know our beliefs, but know that it's completely ok for her to disagree with our beliefs.
So having said all that, those are definitely not all of my fears. But they are the ones I can think of off the top of my head. We hope to raise a kind, considerate, respectful, wise, and independent young woman. And we realize that getting her to that point is going to be tough, but soooo rewarding. :-)
- The big one. Breastfeeding. I won't get into the details on this one. But I want this so badly for myself and my daughter. For the bond, the quick(er) weight loss, the convenience, the nutrients it gives her, and the affordability. But my patience and low tolerance for pain are what scares me here...
-Cloth diapering. Yep, that's right- I'm out of my mind. :-) I am committed to cloth diaper my child. For many reasons. A few being: they're better for her skin, better for the environment, saves money each month and with each child we have (we want 3), & they're just cuter! I will be using the "Flip" system, a one-size diaper, and I am already stocked up on shells & inserts so the only cost it will be to me now is an increase in my electric & water bills. Which shouldn't be too significant. The work is what scares me now!
-Deciding how to keep her distanced from negative friends & family that aren't good for her to be around. Thankfully Shane and I totally agree in this area. We don't want her around drinking, smoking, & swearing. And we don't want her around people that have a negative infuence on her. Family or not. So we plan to talk to the person if there's a problem, and if that doesn't work- unfortunately, distance her from them. 'Nuff said.
-Teaching her religion. We want her to know our beliefs, but know that it's completely ok for her to disagree with our beliefs.
So having said all that, those are definitely not all of my fears. But they are the ones I can think of off the top of my head. We hope to raise a kind, considerate, respectful, wise, and independent young woman. And we realize that getting her to that point is going to be tough, but soooo rewarding. :-)
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