Limbo

I feel like I'm in a stagnant, limbo-like phase of pregnancy. I don't feel like I'm getting much bigger (at least not in my belly if you know what I mean...) I actually think I've gotten smaller because my bloating is gone. And my nausea, I think, is starting to settle down. (yay!) Yet my fatigue is still awful. Shane & I have been walking a mile every night after dinner and that has helped a lot. Then Monday we are going to start doing 30 minutes in the gym on top of that. I feel so lazy :) but I know the more I work out now, the easier labor will be and the less I'll have to work out after Sponge arrives. Oh, so if that makes no sense: we have been calling the baby "Sponge" :) We have been trying not to swear around the baby, as kids absorb words like sponges. haha. Just a joke that kinda stuck.

Anyway, work has only gotten worse so I am looking for a new job, which I doubt I will get. And that's pretty much what's going through my head today. I am overwhelmed and ready to take another nap!

And the "beat" goes on...

Let me just start by saying, yesterday was amazing. I had the coolest experience I have ever had in my life & it probably always will be. At 9:30am, I saw [evidence of] my firstborn child for the first time. Going to the appointment I was incredibly nervous. I felt it would be too good to be true if everything was going well with this pregnancy. I was shaking going in, and you can ask Shane, I had the jitters anticipating going back into that exam room. What if there was no heartbeat? What if the baby was growing in the fallopian tube? Or what if there was no baby at all? Thank God, none of these was true. Seeing that wiggling baby on the screen was an out-of-body experience. I was overwhelmed with joy, relief, disbelief, and comfort. And seeing Shane jump up with a huge grin on his face to touch my hand & take pictures on his phone was awesome. He is so supportive and I could not ask for a better father for my child. That little white "blob" was the cause of my fatigue, nausea, headaches, heartburn, and anxiety. And I could not be more thankful for him or her. I could have watched that sweet, innocent baby move around all day long. And seeing that heart beat at 150 beats a minute was exactly what I needed. How can you love someone so much that you have never even met?